My ignorant view of things

What is it with us humans, our need, nay our compulsion to have to feel something for someone else...

Sun, 12 May 2013 00:58:00 +0100

What is it with us humans, our need, nay our compulsion to have to feel something for someone else all of the time. To want to spend time with people, to loathe being on our own. Are we afraid that when we’re on our own we may discover something about ourselves we never wanted to know? Worried we may realise we made a mistake or the wrong choice too long ago to do anything about? or is it just that we find other peoples company more pleasurable than our own.

For me being a recluse has always been natural. I’ve often had to spend time in my own company, and admittedly at times it can get all too repetitive, I make sure I have my distractions, a movie, a blog article to write (irony), a game to play. At the same time, I still do go out and do things on my own, go see bands or go for a walk. And It does make me struggle to realise what is wrong with a bit of solitude… Even Superman had a place to go where he could just be himself!

This makes me really struggle to understand those people who are obsessed with only doing something or going somewhere when its not just on their onesy or with a single other person, are they that concerned by being considered a social pariah by people that they can’t even contemplate doing something like that?

However, the more I think about this the more I think that I might just be looking for a reason to accept myself as a larry…

The Musings of Me.: Fuck rose tinited Glasses, I see the world through an expensive lens

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 23:40:50 +0000

The Musings of Me.: Fuck rose tinited Glasses, I see the world through an expensive lens:

newfashionedfun:

Do people seriously think that life is more special through a camera lens? The point being that you’re not a fucking photographer, just someone who has spent too much on a camera.

Pictured: Wooow, it’s vintage so it means something besides the point it’s just some fucking flowers

The…

I do admire my brothers writing ability and agree with his views

Paradoxical

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 22:34:26 +0000

I’m stuck in a bind at the moment with my approach to girls, because I only really meet viable ones whilst on nights out, yet, I don’t think I could start seeing someone that stuff had actually happened when I did meet them but at the same time I don’t think I could start seeing someone that was a good friend (despite constantly falling for friends). Can someone advise me on a way out of this?

Sorry that entry was far from my best

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 23:53:51 +0000

Sorry that entry was far from my best

Social behavior

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 23:53:29 +0000

Where the hell have so many of these social network habits come from. I mean what possesses someone to want to spend hours of their time rating people out of 10 for looks personality and closeness, or 5 retweets for 5 retweets, it’s just like “OMG I want to be acknowledged” and this is one time in which I feel sound of mind when I say not all press is good press.

I can understand that being the generation of the social network that the boundaries and lines of what behavior is acceptable and whats unacceptable but I mean when it comes to the “interactive grey area” I tend to try and keep to the question “Would I do that face to face” and surprisingly there are a many great number of things to which I actually say no to.

Another on is the shameless type of pictures some people upload of themselves or even if they’re not particularly offensive photos its the sheer fact of how many of them there are, surely no one person can have the desire to live their entire life through a camera lens, cause if you’re always trying to capture the moment in time you’ll most likely end up missing out on them.

Not to mention the ridiculous use of generic meaningless captions on photos “You don’t need anyone else to tell you you’re beautiful” with an over edited not very flattering photo, probably in black and white because everything need to be in black and white… seriously why? Please can someone enlighten me…

Furthermore, with tumblr the constant reblogging of photos if people you find attractive, or people with feature you want, I get it I mean I’m sure you doing that will eventually cause you to have those features or that “ideal” person will fall just as infatuated with you as you are them…

Here... Again?

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 23:21:20 +0000

So here I am again, lying in bed unable to fall asleep, why did I have to have a nap earlier, anyway since I’m here I might as well waste time and write something horrendously ignorant for y’all to hate me over.

If you’ve got any suggestions they’d be welcome

Two types of people

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 03:53:00 +0000

There are two types of people in this world, those who work for a living and black people… Okay I’m sorry for that crude opening but hey you’re still reading so I guess I’ll carry on. The two type of people I’m talking about are the ones who can see things for a long term goal and ones who are focused on enjoying the now.

I think I fall into the latter classification, although less due to the amount I live in the moment and more due to my undying ability to not put any effort into a long term prospect. I think both type has its upsides because I mean, life is fleeting we lose a moment with each one that passes, as Ferris Bueller famously says “Life moves pretty fast, if you don’t stop and look around once in a while you could miss it” and this does have an aspect of truth. Even the richest man can be sad at the life he never lived.

However there are the obvious benefits to looking at things in the long run as you’ll most likely live a long and prosperous life. However I cant really focus on this side of things as I’ve never really lived with that mentality on life. Instead I’m going to discuss what I see as the reasons someone might only ever be able to live for the here and now.

I’m not going to say the obvious and in my opinion at least wrong choice, that they can’t see the long term benefits because, speaking from my experience at least, I’m well aware of what I could potentially gain from putting in the work now. However, for me at least this presents me with my greatest phobia of what if I do this work then still don’t reach the heights expected of me. At least without trying I can use that as an excuse, I know it’s pathetic but blame my genetics…

Another reason for me is that I need constant gratification on what I’m doing. Now I think this may be the main reason I’m so easily drawn into playing video games, I mean if you think about it on xbox you get achievements for certain feat’s on a game and any game with leveling up systems where you improve upon leveling I am almost instantly addicted. The most successful one at this I must say is World of Warcraft, a game that captured me for many a teenage night.

And the reason for this? it’s not that I necessarily have nothing better to do but fill up my boredom, no, it’s more that in this world I can put little effort in and complete a quest, level up, make my character better… Now I know many will be quick to judge but I prey they manage to look past the loser aspect of that and actually see what I’m trying to convey in the anecdote.

All in all I don’t really know why I wrote about this, it may be partly due to the fact it’s nearly 4 in the morning and I feel more awake than a coke addict does after the first bump of the night, or it may be I wanted to boast about playing WoW for my adolescent years; ladies form an orderly queue please… Or it could just be that I wanted to explain, to all those people who do look for what they can get out of something in the long term, that it’s not just that we’re lazy or uninspired.

Looking for... women?

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 02:49:10 +0000

Now I know this may come as a massive shock to some of you but I have been single for what’s coming up to three years… Shock I know right? However as much as I would like to say it was out of choice sadly I don’t think I could get away with that, nevertheless I’m not going to proceed by writing some self-deprecating spiel about how boring/ugly/lame I am, because it just wouldn’t be true, ummm yeah lets go with that.

Instead I’m going to write about what kind of things I’d want in a girl,in the ever optimistic hope that she’ll fabricate next to me as I do so. Now I don’t mean the typical drivel about how I want them to be nice, funny and beautiful. You know what any guy would say to try seem all cute, instead I’m going to be honest and actually mention some things I find to be relevant for a person to be considered attractive through my eyes.

Okay so number one I would have to say is tolerant because lets not joke around here I can be such a dick at times they’d have to be able to withstand from punching me in the face every now and again. The second would be loquacious as I can be dull as ditch water and I’d need them to be able to fill in the times where I’m not talking. The third, and slightly snootily would be an academic, preferably an English student as I do use abnormal words and I’ve been told it can make people either find me pretentious or, the less likely, make them feel stupid, neither of which I am going for.

Now for a few of the more cliched ones that are obvious but nonetheless here we go, a similar sense of humour, because I’m not very good at picking up on other peoples jokes, and not many people find mine funny. A nice smile, as few things are more comforting than someone you care for giving you a smile to let you know everything is okay, and also you don’t want too much gum no-one likes a gummy smile. Nice eyes; that can catch your attention from across the room.

Okay so I got those few out the way for now I’ll go back to the more personal ones. I’d like someone with the ability to call me out once and a while, keep me levelheaded, I don’t like the idea of someone who’d just sit back and agree with what ever I said because to be frank I say a fair amount to try and provoke a response, now you can call me a masochist or sadist or whatever you like, but it’s not like that. When we know what causes a certain reaction we can then avoid repeating it, if undesirable, or recreate the emotion etc.

Fairly obvious but they’d most definitely have to be a fan of films and when I say films I’m not including anything that is mainly based around romance, because that shit is just rubbish, nor can it feature vampires that glisten in the sun or be about men taking their clothes off and dancing. But can enjoy a good rubbish film or more importantly laugh and even quote a Will Ferrell comedy. And if possible a functioning knowledge of the life and works of Quentin Tarantino I wouldn’t complain.

They’d have to be strong willed and willing to tell me to stop being such a daft prick some of the time, when I let the less cheery thoughts take hold for an evening. Now I’m not meaning I’m bipolar but it’s only human to allow doubt to take control at times…

Now that’s pretty much all I can really think of for now so I guess thanks for reading, and if you meet the criteria just hit me up yeah? :)

p.s. Can’t go wrong with a cracking pair of tits either.

I wish my hit counter should how many different people read this as opposed to solely how many times...

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 20:02:09 +0000

I wish my hit counter should how many different people read this as opposed to solely how many times it’s been visited so then I could know how many peoples time I’ve wasted

I’m in the kind of mood where I want someone to give me justifiable reason to let out my pent...

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 03:02:28 +0000

I’m in the kind of mood where I want someone to give me justifiable reason to let out my pent up anger towards them.

I think I might be doing something wrong on here, should I just constantly be reblogging pictures of...

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 16:02:32 +0000

I think I might be doing something wrong on here, should I just constantly be reblogging pictures of girls that infatuate me and guys I’d aspire to look like or just continue to vent out about the everyday things that manage to get under my skin

The beast in me.

Fri, 28 Dec 2012 01:07:00 +0000

As much as we hate to admit it, we all have slightly different character traits depending on who we are around. There are some who bring out best in us and which we strive to constantly make them think better of us, however, conversely there are the people that bring out the worst. And furthermore, there doesn’t always have to be a reason for it.

Now this is something I hate, because in theory, I loath the idea of having malcontent towards someone for no real reason. And it’s sometimes can cause rifts between you and your friends, as well, say they’re friends with said person and you can only ever show dislike towards such a person. It’s inevitably going to cause friction.

Now what even causes this, what is it in our nature that compels us to judge someone to such a manner that we can either amplify our good qualities or exacerbate our bad ones. I mean we’re considered to be the most highly evolved beings on the planet (aside from cockroaches) yet we can’t always over ride some primitive instinctual urge to impress or insult.

The reason I’ve named this “The beast in me” is because I like to think of myself as not a necessarily overall nasty guy so when I do harbour some unjustified malice towards someone, it irritates me and you know what people are like once we start to dislike someone what ever they subsequently do no matter how normal a thing it may be.

Backlight

Sat, 22 Dec 2012 01:56:00 +0000

Now I know there’s a perception of villains to be the balaclava wearing, shady characters, with nothing more than self-interest in mind, to be considered the bad guy. However, recent revelations have made me perceive things from a different angle, and how something you may think to to be an innocent act may be thought to be a completely evil deed from another standpoint.

There are obviously actions I have performed that I regret doing, however I never thought of myself as a bad guy to carry any sort of malice. Yet I’ve spoken to female friends in which a similar thing has happened I think the guy to be the worst son of a bitch to walk the earth. And this made me think are there things which I have done that could be considered just as bad.

To put in context admittedly there have been times when I’ve taken advantage of a situation and manipulated to my advantage at the exposure of another… So does that make me a bad guy? that makes it all contextual though doesn’t it? I mean does the acts of badness overweight the good acts I’ve performed. Again thats all down to context there have been times where what I and others have thought to be the nice thing to do, from another persons perspective was a bad thing to do.

And I guess, at the end of the day, I can solely summarise the point that: do you value the opinion of the few people you’re close to, or do you want to be perceived as a nice guy to the general public that you don’t give a fuck about…

Science and shit

Mon, 17 Sep 2012 01:01:27 +0100

Below is a link to something I’ve just read and I have to say it’s insane finding out about some of the substances it describes and on top of that it’s exciting the possible developments in technology we could gain from some of these. And I know full-heartedly that most of the people who see these wont give a single flying fuck about it but owh well http://tenmost.com/ten-most-extreme-substances-known-to-man/

"Take care of your balls and they’ll take care of you"

Wed, 12 Sep 2012 00:16:00 +0100

“Take care of your balls and they’ll take care of you”

Do you think long words make you clever, I hope you realise that using them incorrectly makes me lugubrious and apoplectic in the face of such gratuitous ignorance. You are the decadence of the English language.

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 08:02:00 +0100

Actually, no, I don’t think it makes me sound clever, I use words within my diction and surprisingly I’m human, so I do make mistakes. I apologise with every fiber of my being if my doing so offends you. Not to mention my obvious knowledge that I am incredibly ignorant in these writings, read the title, you ass. And if it truly gets to you so much, you have multiple solutions, stop reading it or don’t post something like this behind a mask and address me as yourself instead.

my opinion

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 01:30:00 +0100

Now I’m going to truly be a dick in this and say I find the opinion of the general public to be wrong on the following matter. And to make matters worse I’m almost sure in my thought of this. And that is peoples belief in the consequences of what a single action can have on the future.

The best laid schemes of mice and men
Go often awry

To clarify I’m talking about the grand futility in the belief that ones actions can single-handedly affects the events to follow, and admittedly in small independent events it can but in greater matters when it’s more than just yourself involved the variation of outcomes increases to such a great extent there is an endless number of results in which your own actions have a minimal affect upon.

Now I know this isn’t a very optimistic ideology on the matter as people love to think they have a certain level of control. But the fact, is in every decision no matter how obviously consequential causes a specific timeline to be embarked upon. I know that sounds contradictory to opening statement but the truth is, with every decision everyone makes having a distinct level of impact on events to come any one persons efforts have a limit to the change they can bring about.

Having said all this I don’t want people to believe I’m someone who thinks life if pointless and that its an excuse for us to do anything, as in the greater scheme of things it doesn’t matter but, on the contrary I entirely disagree as although we have a limited amount of influence on the events of things to come, there’s no reason for one person to not try and optimise the best potential outcomes in anyone situation. However this is a matter I probably haven’t best taken advantage of…

The main reasoning for this particular article is that I spend most of my time in which I have feelings for an individual trying to present myself in a way that I’d be thought to be a nice person, with sincere feelings and strong morals, yet that is unsuccessful to such a great degree I deem it as noteworthy right now. And yet when I act in a different way in which I care less about the outcomes of my own actions there seems to be no visible shift in results. And due to my nature of over thinking things I started thinking deeper into the fact of when have my own actions directly been the sole reason of a particular circumstance and I truly struggled.

To round things off I feel the need to raise the tone of this and say, regardless of how inconsequential an action is, stick to the least immoral action as you don’t know what effect your actions may have on another’s life.

Illogical

Fri, 03 Aug 2012 01:23:00 +0100

It’s been a while since I was last so angered by something I had to write about it but something I’d kept myself from blogging has finally passed the threshold for which I can contain it. As you may be able to tell from the title its the illogical decisions people decide to make.

Now I’m going to get this out to start with that I know I’m not necessarily above this problem as there are brief moments in which logic ceases to rule my decisions and pure idiocy takes its place, for example the other night I was eating a bowl of cereal, I went to reach down for my drink and spilt milk down my leg I proceeded to drink my beverage, when I then reached to put my drink down again milk managed to spill down my leg however this time it was the other leg. Why did I not think that was going to happen a second time, I do not know.

But now I’ve shown I’m not above my own logic I will proceed to explain why I hate these illogical moments with such severity. We as a species have evolved and managed to be top of the food chain for the sole reason that we can act and think logically and use that logic to beat something bigger and stronger than ourselves. So the preservation of this ability, in my opinion, surely should be prioritised.

I’m now going to list some illogical things that have caused me great disbelief at the fact that anyone could actually manage them; asking if chickens are mammals, asking the difference between being Chinese and Asian, the creation of romcoms as a genre, musicals, mushrooms and pescatarians. Now I feel rude to say the first two are from the same individual but it’s true and I was worried for a moment that I may need surgery to have my jaw put back in place, due to the sheer speed at which it dropped.

Moving on, I know my ignorance could not be more prominent in talking about such a matter but I’m going amplify that fact even more so now, it doesn’t take much to be able to act logically, simply take a moment before acting on impulse to consider what you’re doing, or think about what you’re saying. You don’t need to be a genius to retain information and if you don’t know enough about a subject just listen to the wise words of Mark Twain, that I have previously referenced and keep your mouth shut…

Why do you hate everything?

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 13:42:28 +0100

I don’t hate everything, if I did then I’d have a lot more to write about

What happened to the ignorance?

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 13:30:00 +0100

I’ve struggled to find things to be ignorant about of late